Gendered dilemmas: To Pink or Not to Pink?

I thought I’d briefly share this little social nugget with my readers, involving the power of gender performance.

My husband and I were at the local Wal-Mart picking up the few things we get there. We had been talking recently about starting yoga, since it seems to be a very powerful way to control anxiety and promote relaxation. We decided to stop by the work-out/outdoor activities section and we located some yoga mats. We spend some time pinching them to gauge their level of support and softness, sniffing them to see if they smelled too much like rubber, and we decided on a certain brand that worked with out beginner level and budget.

Unfortunately, there were only two yoga mats that seemed to be decent. And they were both pink. Oh wait, not just pink, pink on one side and purple on the other. Just in case you wanted to change things up, I guess.

I watched my husband, who happens to be a feminist and educated in gender and sexuality, quietlyGendered Cart struggle with the pink mat. I observed him stare at it, take more looks over the other brands -to see if they he accidently overlooked their quality- and shift around on his feet uncomfortably. Finally, I could see that his dilemma was complete. There was no other option but to buy the pink/purple mat for himself; the same one I was getting.

As we continued shopping, we laughingly discussed the difficulty to overcome the deeply-held gender expectations we both tend to forget are so significant. It was an interesting reminder to pay attention to gender and to be critical of making gendered displays normative and turn them into expectations. What a silly but incredibly meaningful dilemma.

Private For-Profit Higher Education: When Snap Decisions Equal Big Debt and Little Payoff

for_20profit_20collegesI thought I’d write today about a real shock I received while I was at work recently, chatting with a coworker. I’m sure that most readers will be familiar with the private, for-profit colleges that have been launching quite the campaign on the TV and other media outlets in the years following the recession.

Private, for-profit colleges such as Univeristy of Phoenix, Everest, and Kaplan, offer educational services –in particular to an underserved population: “nontraditional” students. This category is a very large and ill-defined one; many higher education administrators that I spoke to while doing research on this while in university agreed that this population is risky (more likely to drop out before completing a degree) and in need of more support in higher education. These students tend to be ones that are older than 24 years, have dependents such as children, and may not have gotten a high school diploma –at least not traditionally. This population also tends to delay entry into university to work or attend to other activities. Private for-profit school marketing can be found slathered over daytime television, openly appealing to minorities, post-military personnel, and to women –generally, to nontraditional students who feel that a traditional university cannot or will not fit into their life.

All of that flashed through my mind when my coworker told me that she was $40,000 in debt to a certain private, for-profit school for….an associates degree.

Yeah. You read it right. 40 grand for a two-year degree. Well, a certificate, if you count employers who don’t accept certain degree-awarding institutions.

Holy crap. I have to say, I was stunned. I attended university on and off (including several years of hiatus) from 2001 to 2012, and through paying out-of-pocket and earning scholarships and grants, and using loans to fill in gaps, I acquired barely over $15,000 in debt for my bachelors degree. I attended a public, State university (in-state tuition and living off campus) and I was a very nontraditional student who relied a lot on online classes. So again, holy crap.

Private, for-profit colleges use marketing that appeals to “nontraditional” students: they are interested in working with your ever-changing schedule, offer classes throughout the day or at night, and even offer online education that is more complete than the piecemeal distance education offered at many public universities. They make education seem possible to a demographic that needs careful, flexible, and considerable personal attention –something large public universities are definitely lacking. Also, they can elicit an emotional, short-term response from potential students by appealing to ideological reasons for wanting a certain career through marketing, i.e. to catch bad guys, to be the next Picasso, to act like a lawyer or a doctor without the years of education and drudgery. This is something I have yet to see with more traditional, public universities (and probably won’t see).

And yet, how many of these already underserved people are arriving at a degree or a certificate with1108defaultrates 40,000 dollars or more in debt? That is, if they even finish. With that kind of dogged debt on your heels the moment you take off your graduation robe, how much improvement in their quality of life can they really expect with their new education? Does the difference between $7.00 and hour to $13-$15.00 dollars an hour do anything but get absorbed by the student loan bills?

Maybe, maybe not. But an important issue to consider in the value of private, for-profit education is the possibility of getting a job that is considered more “respectable”. After all, wouldn’t most agree (I don’t, necessarily) that flipping burger patties at Wendy’s doesn’t hold a candle to the intrinsically respectable “medical” or “health” profession? Perhaps, but I wonder just how long the glamour of the medical office will hold out over the workload vs. pay problems they are likely to encounter. And with the way that some schools advertise to potential students, “…most doctor’s offices have regular hours!” the colleges seem to banking on future students preferring the possible income problems versus the inability to plan for a future and hold their head high when they leave the office.

Choosing a college is a stressful, time-consuming and difficult decision. However it is completely necessary to take the time to really research and get to know what the future responsibilities of that education will be. Every student, attending either private or public schools has this stress. Without thinking carefully about educational choices, you too could end up with a $40,000 associate’s degree. When the financial aid councilors don’t even feel the need to involve you in the financial aid process (besides your signatures), like my experience at the University of Phoenix years ago, you may want to question if they are really lifting a burden or keeping you dangerously in the dark. After all, it isn’t the school personnel that will have to answer to your financial situation down the road. Contrary to what some might think, being involved in your semester-to-semester finances in higher education may be difficult and trying, but knowing where you stand is empowering. With that information, you can make healthy decisions from semester to semester, instead of getting that first bill or statement and questioning the value of the education you just finished. I guess what I’m saying is, you have to be involved in the tedious processes of getting high education, as stressful and sometimes arbitrary as it can be. Putting it off and letting it surprise you once your educational work is done is –in my opinion- like putting of an injury until it festers and becomes unmanageable.

The real irony is, in the case of my coworker whose degree was in criminal justice, her degree was still not enough to apply with the local police to pursue investigations, which is what she wanted to do with it. They require a 4-year degree. So despite the concerns of income, pride in one’s work, and being able to plan for the future, her degree didn’t even land her a job in a field she could exercise the skills she learned. In this way, she paid $40,000 for some time reading up on an interesting subject. Now, I can concede that she should have done more homework on the specific requirements needed to get a job she desired, but that is exactly the opposite of what private for-profit schools encourage potential students to do. “What are you waiting for? Call now! Classes start soon! Pick up the phone and call now!” Who am I to stand in the way of snap decisions?

Yikes.

In Defense of Grand Theft Auto (The video game, not the felony!)

Grand_Theft_Auto_IV_coverThis week, I had planned on writing an article about sex and sexuality commodification, after a comment in my last post about the phenomenon. I indeed wrote the piece, but got frustrated with the fact that some one the points I was trying to make could not be reinforced to my satisfaction –a bunch of video and image clips I had seen before in previous research went up in smoke, so I will have to postpone finishing the article until I find my evidence again.

Until that time, I have something I really want to write about that has been bothering me for a few years. I’m sure that many of my readers know that I tend to write about moderate to liberal issues that are typically feminist in nature, so this post may seem a bit on the uncharacteristic side. But, please bear with me on this.

What I’d like to discuss is the controversial video game Grand Theft Auto. Yeah, that GTA. The game that puts feminist groups, parents, and dozens others into orbit with its “glorification of violence” and sexist themes. I mean, yeah! GTA is clearly the antithesis of progressivism, right? It has to be; it has violence in it and women dressed or posed provocatively on the game promotion materials…well, some of them.

Ok, this is where it gets weird. I actually happen to believe that GTA is one of the most sophisticated and socially complex games existing in the contemporary market.

I said it. Yes, one more time: I enjoy and support GTA, especially the ones released in recent years, like the 2008’s GTA IV. Oh, and I’m still a moderate-liberal feminist who is proud of her socio-anthropological toolkit for understanding culture and social institutions. I also can’t wait for GTA V to be released.

So, for the readers that haven’t left yet, let me tell you why I am thrilled with GTA.

Reason 1: Despite what many think, the more recent GTA games are chock-full of multifaceted, nuanced,Grand_Theft_Auto_IV_coverart realistic characters that run the ethnic gamut from Eastern European to Latino to urban American. Take Johnny Klebitz from the GTA IV side story called “Lost and the Damned” that was released in 2009. Johnny is an aging American biker with (among other things) a fascinating and grey moral code. While he tolerates some violence and even murder between rival biker gangs, when talking with his ultra-junkie ex-girlfriend, he laments her drug use (which has also influenced her into prostitution) and begs her throughout the game to seek professional help. Johnny is engaged in a power struggle within his biker group with another member of his gang who was recently released from prison –a real sociopath that sees drugs and bloodshed as the way to enrich the gang. Throughout the game, you see how the both Johnny and his rival’s non-standard morality and personal code clash, forcing the player to see just how grey the area is between criminal behavior and real, unforgiving criminals. I thoroughly enjoyed having my to question my own character and moral code within the framework of normalized criminality. Additionally, this particular game add-on didn’t shy away from the realities that these men faced in the way of disability (one member was confined to a wheelchair due to a motorcycle accident), their personal identity as they aged and competed with younger males, and how their older, devil-may-care attitudes of youth were beginning to clash with their more experienced, adult mentalities. GTA never devalues their characters just because they practice criminal behavior, instead, the writers work hard to show the very deeply human aspects of each person…or the lack thereof for some true psychopaths.

I choose to discuss Johnny from “Lost and the Damned”, but I could just as easily discuss Luis Lopez from the provocatively titled “Ballad of Gay Tony”, also a side story to GTA IV released in 2009. A Hispanic protagonist acting as the main character, Luis Lopez is a fine example of how difficult it is for a person with very limited resources, like a minority, to escape the call of fast, easy money in crime…and the reality that many industries he find himself in -that claim to be legitimate- are actually intrinsically connected to criminal acts. Luis is a complex person dealing with a significant social problem: how to take care of his traditional mother –a person who is undereducated and easily taken advantage of in America- and be the man she wants him to be while surrounded by easy crime and less-scrupulous family members. All while being a minority with a thick accent. Luis struggles with multiple identities within his extra-social context and his family, and battles with himself daily to mitigate these paradoxes. On one hand, he seeks to be legitimate and well-respected, but his family struggles daily with poverty and lack of resources which demand attention constantly –more constantly than the paycheck of the working world. The fact that he was in prison for two years prior to the game’s opening makes his struggle for legitimacy even more difficult. As the player, watching Luis go through exhausting day after day, it is easy to see the dilemma he faces and observe the vast grey area he navigates: a difficult, confusing, social spThe_Ballad_of_Gay_Tony_coverider web riddled with walls of discrimination, lack of education and social assumption and expectation. Luis knows and admits everything he does to himself, but in many ways, he is confined by social institutions that influence him to keep walking that dangerous grey line. Despite how much he wants to live a “normal American life”, the realities behind discrimination prevent anything from coming to fruition. Anything but crime, that is.

Not to mention, I could write an entire article about the eponymous “Gay Tony” himself: an aging homosexual on the brink of social obsolescence, epitomizing the desperation of an unstable identity linked to drug abuse and poor judgment. It is ironic that “gay” is so important in his identity that it has become inextricably linked to his given name, and yet his sexuality is the least of his concerns. I could go on, but I can’t write about everything!

Reason 2: A common misconception in GTA is that the game deliberately glorifies violence and hate. I can’t disagree more with this idea. I have personally played the most recent, sandbox-style GTA games, and I have never, not once felt that the violence that is present in the game was not horrific, brutal, and full of suffering. A great example of this is in the main GTA IV game, with the Eastern European protagonist Niko Bellic and his cousin Roman Bellic. Niko left the “grey area of Eastern Europe” after fighting for his country in the terrible Yugoslav wars to pursue the so-called American Dream and escape the life of militaristic violence he grew up with. Inadvertently, Niko’s cousin Roman -a hammy, popular culture-emulating, larger-than-life fellow- dragged Niko back into a life of criminal behavior when he admitted to racking up huge gambling debts with shady people. After relying on Niko to get him out of a few tight spots with dangerous loan sharks, eventually a feud is started between the loan sharks, their much more connected and dangerous Russian connections, and Niko and Roman. Over time as the feud intensifies, on the day of his wedding to an American girl he loved, Roman is shot dead on the steps of the chapel heading to the reception. It is horrible and senseless –an act of revenge. Nothing about the scene, with a newly wedded wife screaming, covered in blood and a numbly impotent Niko watching his cousin murdered, was glorious. It was gut-wrenching and unfair.

Even the final scenes in which the protagonist Niko hunts down the real perpetrator(s) behind the murder are not made to be acts of resounding justice, in the spirit of some Quinton Tarantino films. In the end, the player is left feeling empty, unsatisfied, and wondering how Niko will ever again find peace –both psychologically and socially. The ordeals the protagonists endure -the amount of loss and pain- leaves the player exhausted and affected. In the end, the routine, plot-moving violence in GTA, is contrasted by the high-impact, high-suffering of the deaths of main and sub characters which are full of grief and loss.

Reason 3: The final, biggest reason I am going to give in this article for my support and enjoyment of the GTA series is the incredible satire that the GTA universe as a whole makes of our contemporary social world. It is entirely satisfying –and even recommended, if you haven’t done this- to just hop in a car in the GTA world or sit back and look at a television and listen to the game’s radio stations. GTA’s media, like the very best of comedians throughout human history, is a super-magnified lens into the parts of culture that people generally take for granted, injected with some very smart (utterly hilarious) and relevant humor. Every commercial, television and radio show, right down to the billboards to view as you go about your way in the GTA sandbox world are full of sharp, social commentary; commentary about gender roles and expectations, racism, consumerism, and even medicalization. Much like The Onion brings some very real social issues to light by magnifying what is taken for granted, GTA makes apparent the quiet, under-the-radar aspects of culture. For example, a commercial for the “Gender Role Doll” in GTA IV. In the commercial, some conservative GTA politician is exposing the virtues of the doll to girls everywhere, which voices gender-relevant statements programmed into it like (for the female doll), “I’m sorry your team lost… would you like a blow job?” and (for the male doll) “I’m going to repeat the same pattern of abusive behavior as my father.” What an awesome way to magnify and problematize traditional girls’ dolls and the way they are marketed. This is also a great way to bring this issue to the mass audience and make it an easy topic to discuss and contemplate. GTA’s built in media, with its outstanding writing and extremely sharp humor, is a beautiful tool of critical thinking. And we all really, really like thinking critically. Especially about the media. YES.

So, I’ve given just a few examples of why I like GTA, now I’d like to say a few things I hope to see coming out of the games in the future (this generally is what I think about all games, anyway). While I think GTA is a forerunner in the kinds of social issues it eagerly addresses in the game plots, I really would like to see more female main characters with all the wonderful nuances of the male characters they write. While there are some really wonderful and diverse women in the games, like GTA IV’s Elizabeta Torres, a minority, lesbian, drug-dealer who is the paranoid leader of her all-male gang, these women tend to be support characters. I would like to see women or even other genders in lead roles facilitated by the great writing of Dan and Sam Houser…or maybe with an equally talented woman writer on the team. If there is anything that GTA suffers from, it is the female-stigma that haunts all gaming companies and publishers: how difficult it is to get the mass audience (deeply imbedded in patriarchal vales) to buy or want games with females or other genders in the lead role. This really needs to change. Gaming can be better than this.

Also, while I don’t buy into the violent-games-make-violent-people ideology one bit (not one bit), I would like to see more games like GTA, with its exceptional writing and critical analysis of culture, find other means of moving along game plots other than violence. I understand that violence is incredibly universal; that’s one reason it is such a sure bet for something that needs to sell. This is seen all the time in mainstream media and action movies. When any culture sees someone’s head blown off, the point is made. This is much harder with other behaviors that are culturally contexted and may be misunderstood for a global audience. But hey, some great games that were less about violence as a plot device -like Heavy Rain for example- were not only successful, they demonstrated that there is a gaming demographic that desires this kind of change. It can be done; its just really difficult (and risky, given the expense of making and marketing games) and takes real out-of-the-box thinking. But the market is out there, gaming just needs to keep working on this and make other plot devices a priority. Violence is compelling, but it isn’t all there is to human existence.

So finally, I wanted to say a few things about why I wanted to write this. Years ago while in university, I was young in understanding academia and the academic culture. I was naive and I didn’t understand that academia was far from a charitable group of warm researchers, but a competitive, often close-minded community rife with academic fraud and intolerance for intellectual deviation from the standard. During this time, I was heavily influenced by feminism and gender research, and like most young scholars, my mental, ethical and intellectual pendulum swung mightily over to the side of extremism. I also jumped on a lot of politically and agenda-charged bandwagons, one of which was a feministic assault on all things GTA…even before I had actually played any for myself. I fervently embraced the culture and ideology of anti-GTA (and many video games) and even promoted this sentiment at a large-scale public annual festival at university. Looking back at what I was told to believe about GTA (among other things), I realize now that the “research” supporting the beliefs I eagerly embraced were shamelessly cherry-picked from the games, removed from meaningful context. I mean, this is something you could never do at an archaeological dig, but here we all were, doing it for this piece of media. At this point, I can fully admit I was on a political bandwagon and acting as an uninformed loudmouth, but I also know that if I was still on the road of academia, I would have never been able to admit this or write what I really think today. That bandwagon would be my career. Especially writing about a game hated by many feminists –and being a woman- even parts of my personal and social identity would be compromised. I am writing this instead in my own, real opinion, for better or worse, and I’m not sorry.

So there it is. I bet, for those of you who were at least unoffended enough to finish my article, that you may have a few things to say. Please feel free but please keep this in mind: I’m writing this today to face up to a part of academia that I think is unhealthy and undermining; the above is entirely my opinion and intends to fly-in-the-face of what I was told to believe about GTA, both linguistically and socially, though implication. I’m sure there are a lot of counters to how I view GTA…this isn’t meant to be an exhaustive study in GTA research. That being said, have at it.

Access to Scholarly Ideas: Feminist Frequency and HBO’s True Blood

A provocative image from Rolling Stone magazine featuring three stars from HBO's True Blood series.

A provocative image from Rolling Stone magazine featuring three stars from HBO’s True Blood series.

I have been on quite a hiatus from blogging…and really everything besides work; hardly any fiber arts, baking just to have sandwich bread for the week….living day to day. It’s ironic, considering that in my last post I was saying that now that I have a job and some security I can focus on the more important things in life. Well, that being said, I think I will go a bit back to my roots on this blog and discuss some sociological things.

I wonder if any of you know about Feminist Frequency, which is a video blog run by academic feminist Anita Sarkeesian. I ran across her work recently and enthusiastically embraced her research on female characters in video games, called “Damsel in Distress: Tropes vs. Women in Video Games”. Sarkeesian suggested, as many feminists who view video game media critically do, that video games act to reinforce negative and subservient attitudes about women by depicting them as helpless, secondary, and as a prize to be won by male protagonists. It is sharp, articulate, and makes a lot of us feminist gamers out there feel pretty vindicated.

I do however, think some aspects of her gaming research could have been more developed if she had included cross-cultural information about how gender and sexuality expectations differ from Japan and America, since her work included mainly games developed in Japan. There are significant difference in sex/gender ideology in Japan and America which seemed to be all tossed into the same framework of her analysis. Had this context been taken into account, I think her work would have been even more meaningful. Additionally, she focused on games that are now really quite dated, i.e. Super Mario and Zelda franchise which stay close to their 1980’s roots to keep their fanbase happy and coming back for more. Contemporary games have been introducing more progressive themes, which although need more emphasis and reinforcement, are far more than what was offered 20 years ago. But overall, I was pretty excited; here was a well-spoken and well-researched woman with very pertinent and reasonable suggestions about women characters in video games (the subject of which is perilous to tackle since video games are seen as juvenile and meaningless to many) who was also unafraid to take her research to the mass audience. As a researcher that is very for open, accessible research, I was really impressed.

Then I made it to her perspective on HBO’s “True Blood” from 2009.

I was astonished at how her analysis from years ago differed from her take on female gaming characters…and her presentation. She really came a long way, apparently. This presentation I felt was personal, like someone offended by the television show and unable to remove her emotional reactions from her opinion (something we all have to practice in academics). The part I found most disappointing was how she refused to see or was blind to how True Blood brought difficult topics to the forefront of the mass audience. She seemed downright angry that issues such as racism and sexuality were made analogous to vampires, which she called “monsters”.  I couldn’t disagree more with this sentiment. I actually applaud the writers for having done this with these sensitive and meaningful topics.

This is one reason that I have such a problem with academics; they tend to possess a kind of loftiness that influences their research to be unnecessarily obfuscated, distant, and unrelatable to a mass audience. And ironically, the mass audience is exactly who needs to have access to this information to make it a part of common rhetoric. Using a narrative like True Blood to make a difficult or personally challenging issue –such as sexuality, drugs, or racism- one that can be discussed and thought about, is an excellent way to encourage its contemplation. To a mass audience that may be skeptical about higher education, an analogous narrative, instead of a lecture, is just the way to discuss an issue without threatening your audience. Sarkeesian seemed to be offended at this idea, as if promoting a kind of parallel understanding of an issue is an insult. I guess I am a “whatever it takes” kind of researcher. Hey, that last line kind of made me feel like Indiana Jones! Well…kind of.

I believe that if you truly want to influence the social world with your research and work, you can’t insult your audience by forcing them to eat things they just won’t swallow, even if those things are vitally important, like racism. But that fact doesn’t mean you give up on your audience, you just have to get clever, and the writers of True Blood did that, whether they know it or not. And to me, that’s better than total ignorance. And also…in the first few episodes of the series, the female protagonist Sookie Stackhouse does something entirely feminist: she rescues the helpless male vampire lead, Bill from two vampire-drainers (just some rude human beings). Sure, he saves her a bit later on too, after a startlingly violent attack by the people Sookie thwarted previously, but Sarkeesian only discusses how typical, subservient, and helpless she is. Really, Sookie is like most women in real life; powerful and independent when she can be, but in need of help other times. Additionally, she makes the first romantic moves towards her love interest.

Oh and by the way, I don’t like the True Blood series. I think the acting is hammy and wooden, the chemistry between the male vampire lead and Sookie a little unbelievable and forced, and the cast downright unlikeable. So, I’m not just upset at a personal attack on a series I enjoy. I actually dislike it quite a bit.

So, there’s my bit for today. Any thoughts out there?

A New Job and Trouble with Baking

Image courtesy of animekiba.com

Image courtesy of animekiba.com

I am happy and relieved to announce that I finally picked up a job! It’s an administrative position with the State of Nevada and the starting salary is plenty for me to be able to take care of my impending student loans and begin saving for other things in life. Wow; after applying nearly every day since October, this is a massive weight off of my shoulders. I really hope that now, with a little more security in my life, I can get back to the things that matter.

I haven’t been very productive since my last post. I have been working to improve my bread making almost daily, but the most difficult part about baking is the task of eating your progress. Especially when you need to eat it in order to improve.

I think I posted a while ago that my husband and I began a new way of eating and a regular schedule of weight lifting. We follow the anabolic diet, which is a very low-carb, high fat and protein diet. We have both had tremendous success with this way of eating. Oh and since I’m sure I raised a few eyebrows when I said “high fat” –the fear of all Americans- I have a good documentary for you to watch: Fathead. This explains the relationship of high fat to high carb diets and cardiovascular disease and why a high fat, low carb diet results in a healthier cardiovascular system. Here in America, we tend to eat high fat, high carb diets which can result in metabolic diseases, such as diabetes.

We also perform the Stronglifts.com 5×5 weight lifting routine (awesome and highly effective, by the way). All of this makes being an amateur baker a little…..challenging. Since I make enriched breads the vast majority of the time (I don’t really have a good oven for making rustic, artisan breads) which includes sugar, milk and other forms of carbs, they add up quickly in our diet. As it is, my husband and I typically enjoy only one slice of homemade bread a night, at dinner. If a had a steam oven or a reliable way to add steam

Leaflet cardigan with lace rib edging

Leaflet cardigan with lace rib edging

to our countertop convection oven, without the fear of a drop of water cracking the oven glass, then maybe I could focus on beautiful artisan loaves. Alas.

Either way, the trouble is clear: how does one continually improve bread and pastries when eating them is prohibited? I have one idea

in mind. Since I just got a new job -and it’s an office job- I may be able to bring in my baked goodies for others to share. Then I can also

get some feedback. Of course, I don’t want to be responsible for expanding the waistlines of my coworkers either. What a conundrum.

Since I heard about the job, I began a quick, raglan cardigan to wear in the office as the chill wears down from winter. It’s from knitty.com; the Leaflet Cardigan by Cecily Glowik MacDonald. I’m using some of the Peruvian wool from Knitpicks, Wool of the Andes in a deep, red wine color called Hollyberry. It’s a bit of a scratchy yarn, I admit. I was trying to clear out some sale yarn I ordered some time ago to make room…..you know, for more yarn. The cardigan is coming along quickly, and I made a small change to a design element. Instead of the ribbed collar and edging, I used the lace ribbing that was a part of the Ophelia sleeveless cardigan/vest found on amingledyarn.wordpress.com. I think the eyelet feature of this ribbing really complements the

The work in progress

The work in progress

eyelet leaf pattern on the back of the garment. I’m also lengthening the cardigan a bit.

Ok, I have some preparation to do before I start work this next Tuesday (clothes shopping and the like)! I wish everyone a wonderful and romantic Valentine’s Day tomorrow! Here’s to things looking up.

Illusive Job Hunting and Making Bread by Hand

I'm been pretty depressed lately...

I’ve been pretty depressed lately…

My hiatus from blogging was the result of a much needed period of thinking about the future, given my recent decision to leave graduate school and begin the “real world” career hunt. I think at this point a review on the journey thus far would make sense! I apologize for my absence; I even attracted the attention of Christina from FeelGoodKnitting since my spinning on Tuesdays dropped off due to my pondering. In truth, these past few months on the job market and coming face-to-face with the reality of the “power” of a bachelor’s degree (*cough*) has been awful. I just haven’t had it in me to write or keep up with much of anything.

Having a BA hasn’t made a difference in my job search. Not one shred of a difference. Everyone I manage to get an interview with, which was about 7-8 jobs out of over 80 applications, wanted experience. As I have said before, the job market is slanted heavily towards employers. In this rotten economy, there are far fewer jobs than applicants, so employers can sit back and wait for the perfect person with a load of experience to show up. I have never been that person. Even after applying for an utterly perfect position for my education, a sex/sexual health educator for Planned Parenthood, it still amounted to nothing but a great interview that went nowhere. Every single time, I fall short of some super-experienced powerhouse who lands the position. I also have several State jobs that I have applied and taken tests for and am subsequently qualified, that have sat in limbo for months.

At this point, I have begun reconsidering graduate school. I feel pretty defeated. I have applied for the GLP in the Department of Education, which is the Graduate Licensure Program at the University of Nevada, Las Vegas. I have always loved teaching; I pursued elementary education as my BA originally, but changed my mind after being told I had prerequisites on top of prerequisites to actually get my BA. I will keep you all posted, but honestly, I still feel disillusioned and unhappy with the idea of attending a graduate program. Especially after facing the reality of my BA’s worth over the past few months. Being depressed has really cut into my knitting and spinning. I just haven’t wanted to do anything I enjoy.

There have been other things going on though! I have been working through the convoluted and expensive process to get a substitute teaching license, so I hope to be doing something and earning income fairly soon. Also, I just got back from six days in New York City with my husband Al. We went museum hopping and got to enjoy a huge amount of cuisines…if there is anything that is great about New York City, it’s the abundance of very good food (and the fantastic tap water, I kid you not. Try Nevada’s tap, with its heavy magnesium

A mix of 1/3 wheat flour and 2/3 white flour loaf with the worse scoring (the cuts on the top of the loaf) I have EVER done o_O

A mix of 1/3 wheat flour and 2/3 white flour loaf with the worse scoring (the cuts on the top of the loaf) I have EVER done o_O

and calcium content, and you’ll see what I mean). The trip was thoroughly exhausting though; Al and I literally spent 10-12 hours a day running around the city on foot –and not the leisurely type strolling, either. We stayed with friends in their apartment, which was a fine and large apartment, especially for New York, but I’m sure my readers will agree that it’s difficult to fully relax in someone else’s home. So, sleep and rest were not adequate, resulting in exhaustion and major soreness from street-hiking all day. I’ve been in recovery mode since Tuesday.

On a happier note, I have resumed a hobby I have been neglecting since Al and I moved into the new place: bread making! I LOVE to make artisan and standard breads by hand, and being without work or school to keep me occupied, I really needed something else besides knitting and spinning…especially since I was avoiding both activities.

Making bread is completely wonderful and very inexpensive. I can’t think of a single thing that is unpleasant about making bread. And,

A slice of cinnamon-sugar loaf. I glazed the top with a vanilla icing which makes the whole thing taste like a cinnabon! I only wish it  rised more...

A slice of cinnamon-sugar swirl loaf. I glazed the top with a vanilla icing which makes the whole thing taste like a cinnabon!

despite what many think, making bread by hand is not difficult, but it can take a lifetime to perfect. Bread is actually made up of four major ingredients: flour, yeast, water and salt. If you mix these few things in proportion to the amount of flour (a calculation called baker’s measurements or baker’s math) you will get a standard white bread dough. Most bread has several other ingredients such as sugar, a fat such as butter, and even nuts, fruit and/or seeds. You can also use other types of flour, such as whole wheat flour, to change things up or accommodate a particular diet. Here is a site I really enjoy: thefreshloaf.com. I have the link set up to take you right to the “Lessons” page on the site, so you can see for yourself how simple bread making by hand really is. Give it a try! I’d love to see some pictures of any other bread artisans…!

I am trying to get myself back on knitting and spinning again, so hopefully I should have some more project pictures soon! I’m shooting to resume spinning my wool skein this coming Tuesday along with feelgoodknitting.

Gendered Marketing: Bic for Her?

“…they come in both lady-colors, pink and purple.” ~Ellen Degeneres

The Sweaty Knitter, a wonderful blogger and lover of all things fiberarts, shared a really interesting and downright hilarious video clip with me and her readers from the Ellen show. The clip was about the truly remarkable new product from Bic. Yes, that Bic company; the one that manufactures pens, shavers and other stationery products. Well, Bic decided to further fight for equality and gender issues by releasing their new lines of pens: Bic for her.

Take a moment and view the clip from the Ellen show here. It’s hilarious and super poignant, you will enjoy it.

Now we can begin the critical examination of this revolutionary product that makes all women sigh in relief at the newest expression of gender equality.

What do you suppose spurred this product into creation? Can you just imagine the dialogue at the company meeting to get the product green-lighted? What in the world could have been the sales pitch that made the shareholders look at each other and say “oh yeah, that’s a winner”? Well, I guess it would have included the necessary but ignored fact of the intrinsic difference in women’s and men’s hands. Sure, if that existed. Oh wait, I bet some of you are thinking, “Hey! Women’s and men’s hands are different; they tend to be different sizes!” You would be true, but what also must be considered if this “difference” is really about sex. Sociological examinations of groups reveal that groups actually are more “internally diverse” than “externally diverse”, meaning that members of a group are usually more different from other people within the same group, than outside the group. By this evidence, men and women are likely more similar than different, while women are likely more different than other women than men in general. So, does a pen whose entire premise is based on perceived differences between males and females make sense? This is when the difference between “sex” and “gender” becomes very important.

What the pen’s marketing is actually based on is perceived differences in gender. Remember that gender is not the same as sex. Sex is based on the biological sexual organs of a person (which is not as simple as male/female either). Gender is a performance based on expectations, personal motivations, and assumptions. It is what sociologists call “socially constructed”. When a woman wears a dress and does her hair in a feminine style, she is “doing gender”. When a boss at work tells a male to cut his long hair in order to get or keep his job, the boss is policing gender. When men get together to talk about women as sexual objects, discuss their sexual prowess and their “conquests”, they are reinforcing gender to each other and themselves. This is how gender is socially constructed.

The pen product is based on perceived gender differences, such as assumed differences in color preference. The pens come in a “feminine” pink and purple. As Ellen joked in the clip, “…they come in both lady-colors, pink and purple.” Additionally, they apparently have a “slim” barrel. Not the first time “slim” has been marketed as a preferred feminine trait.

In a prior article, In the Fog of Daytime TV, I talked some about Steve Harvey and his (and many other public figures) tendency to chock up human differences in terms of sex. This is an example of how this ideology can pervade other parts of social life and why it is always important to critically example and discuss gender. This crazy product venture, which has managed to incur a great deal of sarcasm from consumers, may not have gotten that green-light at our theoretical stakeholder’s meeting.

Amusingly, I browsed and found several other articles with the same WTF tone about this ridiculous product. Check them out:

http://www.forbes.com/sites/davidvinjamuri/2012/08/30/bic-for-her-what-they-were-actually-thinking-as-told-by-a-man-who-worked-on-tampons/

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/08/30/bic-pen-for-her-amazon-reviews_n_1842991.html

I’m glad to see that many women and even some men have taken the time to discuss how disappointingly absurd this product is.